With the beginning of Advent here, I have been wondering how to prepare my heart for Jesus. I know, I should probably think of these things before Advent begins. That is another bad habit that needs changing, but one thing at a time. Having a heart full of love seems to be where I was led, and believe me the Spirit is willing, but the flesh is weak my friend. I had a beautiful day yesterday, however, the moment when love was truly required, did I respond with love? Sadly, I did not. All the intentions to spread love to others was gone as soon as someone was less than kind to me. So, today, I will try again. Prayers will be graciously accepted!
Well now. It has been quite a while, hasn't it? I have kept silent about my struggles for the past four years, mainly because I was in the midst of something that I never imagined could happen to our family. And it wasn't just my story. It still is not. A friend once told me I am an external processor, and I suppose she is right. I find that saying things out loud help me find the answer, if there is one. There was no good answer, as it turns out. And so, I am sad to say, that I am now divorced. A single mother, navigating a life I never imagined. But there are some things that haven't changed. My faith, for one. I know that God is with me on this journey and that He is way smarter and wiser than I could ever be. He has held me close as I wept and grieved the end of my marriage. He held my hand as I packed up what would fit in a moving truck and drove our belongings to a new home. He has led me to new jobs and I can only trust that all will be well if only I cont...
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