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Walking a New Path

 Well now. It has been quite a while, hasn't it? 

I have kept silent about my struggles for the past four years, mainly because I was in the midst of something that I never imagined could happen to our family. And it wasn't just my story. It still is not.

 A friend once told me I am an external processor, and I suppose she is right. I find that saying things out loud help me find the answer, if there is one. There was no good answer, as it turns out. And so, I am sad to say, that I am now divorced. A single mother, navigating a life I never imagined. 

But there are some things that haven't changed. My faith, for one. I know that God is with me on this journey and that He is way smarter and wiser than I could ever be. He has held me close as I wept and grieved the end of my marriage. He held my hand as I packed up what would fit in a moving truck and drove our belongings to a new home. He has led me to new jobs and I can only trust that all will be well if only I continue to rest in His arms and rely on His mercy and graces.

This new path may be unfamiliar and frightening at times. And I admit to being scared out of my mind, with no idea what God has planned for me now. But I do know that He does have a plan. Lead me, Lord, to the path you have laid out for me.



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  1. You are strong, your faith is strong, and in those moments when you're strength is flagging lean on God, and those of us here trying to do his work to support each other. Sending love in this journey.

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  2. Hey Beautiful. You are incredible. Know you are in my prayers. Love and miss you, Joni

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  3. We are in your corner praying for God’s will and wisdom for you and your family.

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  4. We love you and always have. I admire your faith and resilience in dark and uncertain times and pray that joy and much happiness will abound again soon. Much love from Tom and Susan!

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