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A Little Mercy

Olivia noticed it first. Then Anna exclaimed, "Awesome." Even though I was driving, I had to know what it was. It was a little tiny part of a rainbow coming down through a cloud. Not the entire color spectrum. Just a brilliant red, with the smallest hints of orange and yellow. And then it hit me, it looked just like the ray coming from Jesus' Sacred Heart! And boy how I need His Divine Mercy today. Let's just say that yesterday was just plain awful. I am ashamed of how I handled myself in front of the kids in a tough situation. I was not a good role model. I did apologize to them and let them know how ashamed and sorrowful I was for my actions. Still, they saw me behave very poorly. I can't take that back.

Divine Mercy Direct Me

Eternal God, Goodness itself, whose mercy is incomprehensible to every intellect, whether human or angelic, help me, your feeble child, to do Your holy will as You make it known to me. I desire nothing but to fulfill God's desires. Lord, here is my soul and my body, my mind and my will, my heart and all my love. Direct me according to Your eternal plan. Amen

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  1. You can't take back the behavior, but what a grace you gave them when you apologized!! I have a hard time with "I'm sorry" - my foolish pride always gets in the way!! We all have those moments, but not all of us can be humble enough to apologize out loud to our children.

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