I looked up from feeding Peter and saw Tony on the couch with Jack and Anna. They were reading a new library book. But where was Therese? It was quiet upstairs. Too quiet. I went up the stairs with images of all sorts of disastrous messes in my head. But as I peered into my room, my heart melted. There she was, curled up in the crib that not so long ago was hers. She was sound asleep...sucking contentedly on Peter's pacifier. Methinks she might miss being the baby.
Well now. It has been quite a while, hasn't it? I have kept silent about my struggles for the past four years, mainly because I was in the midst of something that I never imagined could happen to our family. And it wasn't just my story. It still is not. A friend once told me I am an external processor, and I suppose she is right. I find that saying things out loud help me find the answer, if there is one. There was no good answer, as it turns out. And so, I am sad to say, that I am now divorced. A single mother, navigating a life I never imagined. But there are some things that haven't changed. My faith, for one. I know that God is with me on this journey and that He is way smarter and wiser than I could ever be. He has held me close as I wept and grieved the end of my marriage. He held my hand as I packed up what would fit in a moving truck and drove our belongings to a new home. He has led me to new jobs and I can only trust that all will be well if only I cont...
Awwww, so sweet. And so glad this post did not include any bumps, bruises, concoctions made of expensive cosmetics or experiments with Hershey's syrup as I originally thought when I opened this post.
ReplyDeleteVery sweet, but I hope that scene did not induce guilt!
ReplyDeleteregression. the baby books talk about it. but not nearly so sweetly as you just did. awww.
ReplyDeleteWe were wanting to take Joe's paci from him before Sam was born but never got around to it. Now he is attached to it more than ever. We'll probably wait a few months before we take it away!
ReplyDeleteAwww. My heart melted a little too!
ReplyDeletea sweet sweet post. I loved reading this. Got this post from karen. Nice reading and much prayer
ReplyDeleteSharon