Wednesday, July 9, 2014

Rainy Days

It has been raining steadily for about 48 hours now. No heavy downpours, just a steady, drizzling, cold rain with the sky varying in shades of white and gray. It is July, and the high temperature yesterday was only 56. It most certainly does not feel like the middle of summer!

On days like this, I seem to get to pondering things and so I think I will just let these tumble out onto the screen as they come to me.

Tony was gone for five days to Latvia and he returned home on Monday. It seems that he will be taking these short trips fairly frequently. I find it hard to adapt to a different schedule for only a few days and then try to return to our 'normal' life over and over. When he is gone, I find I don't feel like cooking full meals even though there is only one less person. We 'snack' for meals, simple things like apples, crackers, salami, and pickles. I end up with more kids in bed with me during the night, even those that don't normally show up. It is good to have him home, I feel safe and settled.

These rainy summer days have brought back memories of childhood summers at my grandparent's house. There is no air conditioning over here, just as it was at Grams' and Grandad's. There were box fans in the windows during the day and the windows were left open at night. I can remember half waking up to see my grandmother quietly closing the windows just as I was recognizing the fact that I was chilled. The windows are open here too, and the outside sounds find their way to my ears as I fall to sleep. Little birds chirping away. The sound of tires on wet pavement. The rain on the roof. I used to love sitting outside under a porch or an umbrella on rainy days like this.

I battle to stay upbeat on days like this. I found out a couple months ago that my vitamin D levels were extremely low. The doctor prescribed a mega-dose of vitamin D once a week for 12 weeks. I am honestly not seeing any difference in my mood. I know it is not as sunny here, but I wonder why my levels plummeted so quickly. Of course, we are also approaching another year of not having Ben with us here.

I signed Anna and myself up for a writing class on Brave Writer. We are taking the basic class. I have been very negligent in writing assignments this year. We have stayed on top of math and reading, but writing got sidelined during all the upheavals of the move to Germany. I knew I needed something to keep me accountable and not lose steam. The cost of the class should keep my motivation strong! This is the first week of a six week course, so I will let you know how we liked it when we finish.

I also tried to sign the kids up for swim lessons before we take a trip to the beach, but it has proved to be less than simple. No one at the pool seems to know what is going on. We are not allowed to sign up for classes until tomorrow because people that have already taken a class previously have priority. Plus, they have to give Anna an assessment to see which class she belongs in, yet no one can tell me when the person who does this will be available. They also failed to mention when I was there yesterday that we could not sign up until we filled out a liability release. Organized? I think not!

Lastly, my dad is currently undergoing chemotherapy, so if you would be so kind as to offer up a prayer for him, it would be most appreciated!


  1. My Vit D dropped about a year ago. I was on a once weekly mega dose for 12 weeks. The next time my doctor checked my levels (about six months after the first) they were, again, really low. Another 12 weeks of mega dose and I also take 100O iu every day (well, most days). I get quite a bit of exposure to the sun during the summer, without sunscreen -- certainly the required 15 minutes (but then Columbus is a pretty cloudy place), and I also drink Vit D milk. I think my adrenal gland is drained from pain and stress, but no doctor wants to talk about that. I don't think they know much about the body as a whole, even though I don't find it hard to find documents online. I'm also on thyroid medication, which, along with being Vit D deficient, seems to be almost standard among women our age these days. Just make sure you get checked again in six months or so. And as for the low days, I am right there with you. I wish I knew what caused it. I still do the things I want, but I find it hard dragging my behind around all day!

    Prayers for your dad. I hope he has a most successful course.

  2. My vitamin D levels are also extremely low and I am on a high dose of therapy. The doctors still can't figure out why my labs are so abnormal on so many levels. I just wish they would come up with a diagnosis. It has been over a year! But nope, more labs in six to eight weeks. I hope you have more luck with yours. Prayers for your dad, he is a strong man. And because I know exactly how difficult it is to be far away, prayers to you also. I'm here if you need to talk, write, whatever. Low you and miss you.